Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Most beautiful mom?

Look at your Mommy my dear...

So... this is me getting bigger and bigger plus wider each passing month...
I got three more months left which actually means more months to gain weight...
Very frustrating...
I am honestly getting frustrated with my physique these days. Well, I guess I have to believe that you'll see me as the most beautiful mommy in the world *wink*

I loveyou baby.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Mom is praying for your good health

I’m eleven days earlier my appointment.

My non-productive cough got on the nerves of my mother that prompted “her” to consult me to a doctor. So to make the consultation story short, the doctor advised me to just rinse my throat with a saline solution since she found no significant findings upon auscultation—that cost me 250php already.

At least my visit served my prenatal-check as well which mean I don’t have to come back in the next two weeks anymore as scheduled. So! I am now weighing 60 kilograms and my fundal height measures 19cm. The doctor said it seems I was the only one gaining weight, not my baby. According her, I may be adequate on size but I don’t fit with the average 27-week old pregnant. I don’t really understand her. She always comes with “but’s and then’s” and after that will eventually tell me “You’re doing good, there is nothing to worry about”. I think I’ll never have a chance to like her.

In any way, I’m still looking forward to pay her a visit next month. I’m counting down the days! It’s because next month will be the month that I am going to know my baby’s gender. Cheers for that!!! Two out of ten people I know said I’m having a boy; the rest believed it’s a girl. Let us wait until next month then.

I am excited at the same time scared. Why? It’s because all this time I was bothered by the possibility of my baby to have some structural deformities.  I never knew, I never seen my baby developed…all I know is that my baby is alive and kicking. Is that enough?

Until next month… I'm praying for my baby’s good health.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Nanay's Birthday

Click "Si Nanay" to read about her birthday

Today, I had a hard time fitting I heart Nay shirt. Everyone is wearing the same shirt so I have to blend in. The shirt is too big yet too small for me, argh! and to match it with, I wore black skinny jeans designed for baby bump! looking good... (nagfefeeling) I had fun and enjoyed everyone's reaction "seksing buntis" whaaaaat?!? yeah! I know they're just trying to make me feel better, I still lavet!
getting ready to join the rest of the family
Seriously?!?this is how i look like while trying to convince myself I'll be looking good with I heart Nay shirt

Saturday, May 14, 2011

99 days

Hi my dear little angel... I'm counting down the days and we got approximately 99 days more.

Today is good, much better than the previous. 
I’m not happy but at least I have no reason to feel sad. Well, there is actually… I rather choose not to be.
My distress lies on whether if I can deliver my child normally. In which I am quite confident that I can although chances are… I have no idea what exactly will happen to me in the next three months.*crossed-fingers* (Prayers for good things along our journey)  
I'm spending my days doing nothing here inside my four-sided room (aside from chatting with online buddies in the hope to free myself from boredom) while my partner on the other side of the world does everything that he can to earn a little for our expenses. Pleaded guilty for this but there is nothing I can do anyway, I can’t insist myself to make money as much as I wanted to help. 
We worry if we can afford to pay hospital bills and if we can provide our baby’s needs. I guess this is what it takes when you’re not prepared. Surprise! But instead of feeling sad I’m trying to convince myself everything will just be fine and will set the way we wanted. I know we can. We’re not geared up but that doesn’t mean we should feel bad  and regret.  
It is worth worrying... worth waiting... worth everything